This morning, (Feb 5), I read this article which made me feel like it's OK and that it's completely normal
Friday, February 3, 2017
It's hard sometimes to remember all of the good times you had with your past horse. Spyder was so very special, and the time hops and memories that post up in photos from "this date last year" are hard to stomach sometimes. We did so much together and it's hard to think that it came to an end so quickly. I expected to have him until we were much older, well into his 20's, and hoped to hit 30's. I got invited to the hunter pace we would usually do (I've done it with Denali once since), and Spyder's photo is the cover photo for the event. Man, I do miss that big goof.